Empty bowl

Every time I see her empty bowl, I’m grateful that my baby finished her meal. She doesn’t always eat all of it, which is worrying. I don’t want to lose her to malnutrition any more than I want to lose her to the cancer. But I was warned that her appetite would wane.

Last night was a nightmare. She couldn’t stop coughing. I’d given her the pain meds already, so I felt helpless, even as she came to me to please help her breathe. It was heartbreaking. All I could do was try to comfort her and hope she was still with me in the morning. I didn’t sleep well, but she was still here.

She groans when I cuddle her and breathes a little more heavily at times. Just wish this wasn’t progressing as quickly. I don’t want to say goodbye. 💔